cant believe i've been here for a year now!
or a year plus. i'm so fail in counting :)
before i was actually moved, i was like, WOW. i'm really gonna stay abroad! it felt BIG. cant deny i felt cool. i felt like i was gonna conquer the world. ha! rock it, baby!
but now, i dont feel that much. yes, it is still something. moving here is still something. a year ago, going home meant traveling by car. this year, going home means traveling by plane. that, and the fact that going home everyday is impossible.
sometimes, singapore feels like a place for camping. like i will only stay here temporarily, to play and learn, and then i will leave it, bringing photos and memories that would remain as jokes and stories. like on the day the camp ends i would run to my mom, blabbing about what happened during the camp. and i would take shower, changing into my pajamas and sit there, watching tv with mommy.
at times, though, singapore feels like home. like this is where i am supposed to upgrade myself. to chase after my dreams. to stand on my feet and start walking. to sit in silence when i need to. to go out and burst free when i want to. to find warmth from people i've never thought. like i have yet another bunch of family here.
and at times like this, indonesia feels like a getaway destination. like a place where you go when you get tired. a hiding place when it gets too crowded outside. a silence when it is too loud. a break after a long run.
it's been a wonderful year full of colours. bliss and tears come and go, and they would still come and go. seasons would always be changing. and i would as well be growing. grateful, grateful, grateful. He's always been nearer than my breath, and He'll always be.
it's been a year ..
.. and counting!
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'and thank you for a house full of people i love. amen.'
|terri guillemets|
gara gara bacain blog nya arman tjandrawidjaja, gue jadi terinspirasi untuk critain keluarga gue juga. inspirasi nyontek sih sebenernya hehehehe. tak apalah, orang belajar kan awalnya nyontek dulu :p
gue itu emang pada dasarnya suka putaw (bener ga sih tulisannya?), seperti kata mami gue. kalo lagi di indo nih ya, lagi bareng papi mami teppy gitu, tar gue tuh yang suka seenak jidat sendiri aja ngapa-ngapain, berasa hidup sendirian di hutan aja. kayak misalnya gue ngantuk mo tidur ya tidur aja, padahal bentar lagi udah mau pergi bareng2 gitu hihi. trus yang paling sering sih, begadang online sambil ngemilin isi kulkas. dan itu kan malem malem ya dimana si teppy tu lagi tidur nyenyak nyenyaknya. otomatis dia jadi suka bangun bangun gitu gara gara gue kluar masuk kamar -soalnya kita tidur sekamar- heheheh. come to think of it, gue bandel bener ya dirumah hihi.
tapi begitu disini, gue yang kayak kangen gitu trus nyariin mulu. sampe pernah juga gue lagi kangen banget pengen pulang, gue sampe nyesel suka bandel dan janji ga bakal bandel lagi kalo pulang. tapi kalo sekarang dipikir pikir lagi, kayaknya sih enakan bandel ya hehehe.
ga tau sih, apa yang kayak gini cuma terjadi sama gue atau sama orang lain juga. tapi kalo menurut gue sih ya, hal ini terjadi mungkin karna kalo dirumah tuh gue berasa jadi anak banget, anak bontot pula. jadi otomatis gue ngerasa safe and sound banget lah, dengan adanya ortu dan cici gue. dengan merasa safe and sound itu lah jadi bisa bandel hehehe. sementara kalo disini kan, gue merasa jauh dari kluarga, yang ada cuma temen temen. walaupun deket dan tiap hari sama sama, tapi kan tetep beda. gue merasa harus responsible sama kesejahteraan hidup diri sendiri hahah.
i miss you all, papi mami teppy!
gara gara bacain blog nya arman tjandrawidjaja, gue jadi terinspirasi untuk critain keluarga gue juga. inspirasi nyontek sih sebenernya hehehehe. tak apalah, orang belajar kan awalnya nyontek dulu :p
gue itu emang pada dasarnya suka putaw (bener ga sih tulisannya?), seperti kata mami gue. kalo lagi di indo nih ya, lagi bareng papi mami teppy gitu, tar gue tuh yang suka seenak jidat sendiri aja ngapa-ngapain, berasa hidup sendirian di hutan aja. kayak misalnya gue ngantuk mo tidur ya tidur aja, padahal bentar lagi udah mau pergi bareng2 gitu hihi. trus yang paling sering sih, begadang online sambil ngemilin isi kulkas. dan itu kan malem malem ya dimana si teppy tu lagi tidur nyenyak nyenyaknya. otomatis dia jadi suka bangun bangun gitu gara gara gue kluar masuk kamar -soalnya kita tidur sekamar- heheheh. come to think of it, gue bandel bener ya dirumah hihi.
tapi begitu disini, gue yang kayak kangen gitu trus nyariin mulu. sampe pernah juga gue lagi kangen banget pengen pulang, gue sampe nyesel suka bandel dan janji ga bakal bandel lagi kalo pulang. tapi kalo sekarang dipikir pikir lagi, kayaknya sih enakan bandel ya hehehe.
ga tau sih, apa yang kayak gini cuma terjadi sama gue atau sama orang lain juga. tapi kalo menurut gue sih ya, hal ini terjadi mungkin karna kalo dirumah tuh gue berasa jadi anak banget, anak bontot pula. jadi otomatis gue ngerasa safe and sound banget lah, dengan adanya ortu dan cici gue. dengan merasa safe and sound itu lah jadi bisa bandel hehehe. sementara kalo disini kan, gue merasa jauh dari kluarga, yang ada cuma temen temen. walaupun deket dan tiap hari sama sama, tapi kan tetep beda. gue merasa harus responsible sama kesejahteraan hidup diri sendiri hahah.
i miss you all, papi mami teppy!
Monday, April 11, 2011
hometown
jadi, mari kita ngobrol tentang gs. apa itu gs?
gue inget betul, 10 tahun lalu waktu gue masih sd, nggak banyak orang yang tahu apa itu gs. bahkan ada seorang penyiar radio terkenal yang pernah bilang, 'apaan tuh gs? gembel senayan?' iih. gak gaul deh lo.
sebagai konfirmasi dan klarifikasi, gs adalah gading serpong, dan BUKAN gembel senayan. oh plis.
gue tinggal di gs sejak umur mmm 4? 5? pokoknya sejak tk. gs adalah tempat gue bermain dan belajar sambil bertumbuh [walaupun bukan ke atas hiks]. disanalah gue bersekolah, berteman, berpacaran, bertetangga, namun belum berkeluarga heheheh.
menurut gue, gs adalah sebuah kota mungil yang nyaman seperti di film film. di dalamnya tersedia semua keperluan dan fasilitas yang menunjang kehidupan gue : keluarga, teman, rumah, sekolah, mall, makanan enak, bioskop, coffeeshop, toko buku, bank, pom bensin, 24hr spots. bisa dibilang, gs adalah lingkungan yang ideal sebagai tempat tinggal. dan gue belum pernah berkeinginan tinggal di lingkungan lain.
favourites in gs :
1. sms xxi. murah, nyaman, deket rumah, popcorn enak
2. sms starbucks. satu kata : pewe.
3. martabak miki mos. argh craving!
4. raffles / ohlala, 2nd floor.
5. wong solo. their meals are somehow comforting.
6. es jelly sebrang penabur. mangstap!
7. farmers market. pewe.
8. lau's kopitiam. pewe.
9. rumah orangtua gue pastinya. most pewe ever.
10. the wide roads. kinda cool.
11. rumah icha. the buddies rendesvouz.
udah ah. mau minum susu kacang dulu hihi.
ciao!
gue inget betul, 10 tahun lalu waktu gue masih sd, nggak banyak orang yang tahu apa itu gs. bahkan ada seorang penyiar radio terkenal yang pernah bilang, 'apaan tuh gs? gembel senayan?' iih. gak gaul deh lo.
sebagai konfirmasi dan klarifikasi, gs adalah gading serpong, dan BUKAN gembel senayan. oh plis.
gue tinggal di gs sejak umur mmm 4? 5? pokoknya sejak tk. gs adalah tempat gue bermain dan belajar sambil bertumbuh [walaupun bukan ke atas hiks]. disanalah gue bersekolah, berteman, berpacaran, bertetangga, namun belum berkeluarga heheheh.
menurut gue, gs adalah sebuah kota mungil yang nyaman seperti di film film. di dalamnya tersedia semua keperluan dan fasilitas yang menunjang kehidupan gue : keluarga, teman, rumah, sekolah, mall, makanan enak, bioskop, coffeeshop, toko buku, bank, pom bensin, 24hr spots. bisa dibilang, gs adalah lingkungan yang ideal sebagai tempat tinggal. dan gue belum pernah berkeinginan tinggal di lingkungan lain.
favourites in gs :
1. sms xxi. murah, nyaman, deket rumah, popcorn enak
2. sms starbucks. satu kata : pewe.
3. martabak miki mos. argh craving!
4. raffles / ohlala, 2nd floor.
5. wong solo. their meals are somehow comforting.
6. es jelly sebrang penabur. mangstap!
7. farmers market. pewe.
8. lau's kopitiam. pewe.
9. rumah orangtua gue pastinya. most pewe ever.
10. the wide roads. kinda cool.
11. rumah icha. the buddies rendesvouz.
udah ah. mau minum susu kacang dulu hihi.
ciao!
Friday, February 11, 2011
its gonna be a long long post
i miss my sister.
i dont know why and how did it happen but it just hit me hard.
so why dont we throw some chitchat about my sister?
she is two years older than me, ever since i was born. but more often than not, she doesnt act like one. HAHA. she could be incredibly childish, but at unexpected times, she could be pretty mature. she is taller than me -yeah everybody is taller than me-, around 160 i think? and she has beautiful long legs -i envy! haha. her hair, though much thinner than mine, is really smooth and manageable. yet she always complained, wishing she had my thick big hair *.* she just never know how hard it is having a bird's nest on your skull. she has tan glowing skin, results from daily simple treatment for years. you should see her face skin! then compare to mine hahaha no please dont. she has a big smile and small eyes.
see her legs?
she loves to dress sweetly, a bit girly. sometimes too girly. well. haha. she is good at putting on makeup that makes her look even more stunning. though she often looks foolish, shes actually smart inside. and really kindhearted. too kindhearted sometimes. it might be the reason why she gets on well with children. i could never pamper my little cousins the way she did.
uph award - won in 2009, nominated in 2010
p.s. : on the left is not my father!
we used to argue almost everyday when we were little. and 99% of it was because of me jerking :p now that i know she could never offense me, i give up HIHIHI.
we have been separated for almost 5 months now. but i managed to see her last december :) shes now busy taking care of her muffins business. if everything goes well according to plan, shes going to graduate this december.
basilico
oops she will kill me for posting this photo hahaha
anyway, see how her hair falls beautifully?
i dont know why and how did it happen but it just hit me hard.
so why dont we throw some chitchat about my sister?
she is two years older than me, ever since i was born. but more often than not, she doesnt act like one. HAHA. she could be incredibly childish, but at unexpected times, she could be pretty mature. she is taller than me -yeah everybody is taller than me-, around 160 i think? and she has beautiful long legs -i envy! haha. her hair, though much thinner than mine, is really smooth and manageable. yet she always complained, wishing she had my thick big hair *.* she just never know how hard it is having a bird's nest on your skull. she has tan glowing skin, results from daily simple treatment for years. you should see her face skin! then compare to mine hahaha no please dont. she has a big smile and small eyes.
see her legs?
uph award - won in 2009, nominated in 2010
p.s. : on the left is not my father!
we have been separated for almost 5 months now. but i managed to see her last december :) shes now busy taking care of her muffins business. if everything goes well according to plan, shes going to graduate this december.
on my highschool graduation
basilico
sour sally sms
oops she will kill me for posting this photo hahaha
anyway, see how her hair falls beautifully?
i have planned quite many things to do when she visit me here :D
i just cant wait!
i just cant wait!
Friday, January 14, 2011
RI
well, so, um.
hello.
im back in singapore.
and im just not ready for it. i mean, i still want indonesia!
i cant get enough of my family. besties. my room. my home. mommys meal. stupidity.
cant get enough!
holidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, i want you back!
its actually not the holiday itself that matters, its the holiday in indonesia. the country might not be the most appealing holiday destination for people, but its home, its where i belong. its where i cant get enough living in.
even though singapore is not bad, mm pretty good like they say, it cant replace indonesia.
even though both have place in my heart, one position is different to the other. it will always be.
indonesia, whatever they say, is a home. my home.
and the worst part of it all is when you dont even know when you will go home.
i miss you already, indonesia
hello.
im back in singapore.
and im just not ready for it. i mean, i still want indonesia!
i cant get enough of my family. besties. my room. my home. mommys meal. stupidity.
cant get enough!
holidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, i want you back!
its actually not the holiday itself that matters, its the holiday in indonesia. the country might not be the most appealing holiday destination for people, but its home, its where i belong. its where i cant get enough living in.
even though singapore is not bad, mm pretty good like they say, it cant replace indonesia.
even though both have place in my heart, one position is different to the other. it will always be.
indonesia, whatever they say, is a home. my home.
and the worst part of it all is when you dont even know when you will go home.
i miss you already, indonesia
Friday, July 30, 2010
30.07.10.12.42.am
aduhduh ngantuk!
tuh kan gue juga ga ngerti knp selalu post di tengah malam buta dengan mata 5 watt.
mungkin takdir.
gue ga ada kerjaan nih mati gaya banget tidur pun malay.
tadi siang jam pulang skolah gue keluar kandang menuju mantan sekolah tercinta. akhirnya gue bisa juga nyebut mantan sekolah hahaha. dimana mana yg namanya jam plg skolah selalu macet bagaikan si komo lewat.
gue janjian sama icha si jidat nonton paskib. gue tadinya agak2 mls jg tapi bgitu dgr ketuanya org merauke n wakilnya org papua, gue langsung semangat 17agustus hahha!
lucu aja gitu kayak paskib nasional aja dari sabang sampe merauke hehehe.
lalu tibalah gue di skolah dan menemukan icha si jidat yang ternyata tidak alone alias sendiri. bersamanya telah ada seorang lelaki! kribo! sebut saja jenggo. haha ternyata ada jenggo juga.
mulailah kita memantau dan mengikuti jalan nya acara dengan hikmat.
tau ga? ada junior cowo keciiil banget hehe. sama gue aja masi tinggian gue, lo bisa bayangin betapa kecil nya dia. hahaha gue pengen ketawa tapi ga enak abis anak nya lucu imut kayak cottonbud hahhaha. pengen gue dorong gitu pake jari pengen tau aja dia terbang ga hahahha. jahat ya gue padahal dulu gue bernasib sama hiks (teringat masa lalu)
ga berasa gue udah senior atas aja. padahal kayak baru sebentar gue pake kaos putih, jepit poni, pake anduk diselipin di celana (yah memang gak banget) eh sekarang junior nya udah beda 3 angkatan aja.
gue jadi pengen skolah lagi, sekarang baru berasa enak nya sma, tiap hari main, ketawa ketawa ama temen temen, punya meja sendiri, jam pelajaran kosong, tidur di kelas, pokoknya seru. hidup kayak ga ada beban kecuali ujian. ga usah mikir besok mau ngapain, besok mau jadi apa. yang dipikirin paling mentok juga besok ulangan hahha. atau mikirin cara supaya ga ketauan ga bikin pr hehhee.
bagi gue, masa sma gue yg diisi belajar main ulangan teman pacaran paskib adalah masa paling enak, paling nggak, paling enak sampai saat ini.
ternyata, pepatah 'you never knew what you got til you lose it' itu benar :)
goodnight, world.
tuh kan gue juga ga ngerti knp selalu post di tengah malam buta dengan mata 5 watt.
mungkin takdir.
gue ga ada kerjaan nih mati gaya banget tidur pun malay.
tadi siang jam pulang skolah gue keluar kandang menuju mantan sekolah tercinta. akhirnya gue bisa juga nyebut mantan sekolah hahaha. dimana mana yg namanya jam plg skolah selalu macet bagaikan si komo lewat.
gue janjian sama icha si jidat nonton paskib. gue tadinya agak2 mls jg tapi bgitu dgr ketuanya org merauke n wakilnya org papua, gue langsung semangat 17agustus hahha!
lucu aja gitu kayak paskib nasional aja dari sabang sampe merauke hehehe.
lalu tibalah gue di skolah dan menemukan icha si jidat yang ternyata tidak alone alias sendiri. bersamanya telah ada seorang lelaki! kribo! sebut saja jenggo. haha ternyata ada jenggo juga.
mulailah kita memantau dan mengikuti jalan nya acara dengan hikmat.
tau ga? ada junior cowo keciiil banget hehe. sama gue aja masi tinggian gue, lo bisa bayangin betapa kecil nya dia. hahaha gue pengen ketawa tapi ga enak abis anak nya lucu imut kayak cottonbud hahhaha. pengen gue dorong gitu pake jari pengen tau aja dia terbang ga hahahha. jahat ya gue padahal dulu gue bernasib sama hiks (teringat masa lalu)
ga berasa gue udah senior atas aja. padahal kayak baru sebentar gue pake kaos putih, jepit poni, pake anduk diselipin di celana (yah memang gak banget) eh sekarang junior nya udah beda 3 angkatan aja.
gue jadi pengen skolah lagi, sekarang baru berasa enak nya sma, tiap hari main, ketawa ketawa ama temen temen, punya meja sendiri, jam pelajaran kosong, tidur di kelas, pokoknya seru. hidup kayak ga ada beban kecuali ujian. ga usah mikir besok mau ngapain, besok mau jadi apa. yang dipikirin paling mentok juga besok ulangan hahha. atau mikirin cara supaya ga ketauan ga bikin pr hehhee.
bagi gue, masa sma gue yg diisi belajar main ulangan teman pacaran paskib adalah masa paling enak, paling nggak, paling enak sampai saat ini.
ternyata, pepatah 'you never knew what you got til you lose it' itu benar :)
goodnight, world.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
22.06.10.02.08.pm
hulahoop!
waaaaaah sudah lama tidak mengeblog hihihi.
setelah kemarin teman saya yang bernama bastitutetota (baca : si gendut) mengupdate blog nya saya jadi teringat dan terilhami dan mendapat pencerahan bahwa telah berabad-abad lamanya blog saya ini tidak diurus hehe.
mmm just yesterday i was thinking about my family and people surrounding me, and i feel like reminded how essential they are.
mungkin buat temen2 yg lain yg masih akan terus stay disini sama keluarga nya, ini ga akan berasa dan sounds like a cliche doang. tapi gue ngerasa banget since i'll be separated with people i used to live with. ini pertama kali nya juga gue takut pisah sama mereka, terutama orangtua gue, karena selama ini gue tergantung banget sama mereka dan gue ga tau apa bisa hidup sendiri tanpa mereka. selama ini mereka yang selalu handle segala sesuatu nya tentang gue hmmm.
tadi pagi di mobil mau ke lippo
mami : duh sekarang aja udah sedih deh rasanya kamu mau pergi
gw : hah?
mami : iya kemaren aja kamu ga pulang pulang sampe malem rasanya gimana gitu
gw : hah? hmmm
grrrr. gue jadi ga pengen pergi.
trus kemaren nya juga
dirumah icha
wede : pinky nanti kalo udah di singapur sering sering telpon mami
gw : mmm (manggut2)
kemaren kemaren nya lagi di rumah
teppy : ping ntar gimana lo udah pergi gue takut tidur sendiriii ping gimana doooong
gw : halah biasa juga lo ketemu ranjang langsung molor ga pake takut
teppy : (ngambek)
hhehehe yg ini kok terdengar agak lucu ya hahah
iiiih. pengen nya semua ikutan dibawa aja ke singapur jadi kan enak ga usah pisah2 uuh.
tadi pagi gue liat kalender, udah tanggal 22 juni aja grrr. makin deket aja waktu gue berangkat grrrr.
ah udah ah
dadaaah!
waaaaaah sudah lama tidak mengeblog hihihi.
setelah kemarin teman saya yang bernama bastitutetota (baca : si gendut) mengupdate blog nya saya jadi teringat dan terilhami dan mendapat pencerahan bahwa telah berabad-abad lamanya blog saya ini tidak diurus hehe.
mmm just yesterday i was thinking about my family and people surrounding me, and i feel like reminded how essential they are.
mungkin buat temen2 yg lain yg masih akan terus stay disini sama keluarga nya, ini ga akan berasa dan sounds like a cliche doang. tapi gue ngerasa banget since i'll be separated with people i used to live with. ini pertama kali nya juga gue takut pisah sama mereka, terutama orangtua gue, karena selama ini gue tergantung banget sama mereka dan gue ga tau apa bisa hidup sendiri tanpa mereka. selama ini mereka yang selalu handle segala sesuatu nya tentang gue hmmm.
tadi pagi di mobil mau ke lippo
mami : duh sekarang aja udah sedih deh rasanya kamu mau pergi
gw : hah?
mami : iya kemaren aja kamu ga pulang pulang sampe malem rasanya gimana gitu
gw : hah? hmmm
grrrr. gue jadi ga pengen pergi.
trus kemaren nya juga
dirumah icha
wede : pinky nanti kalo udah di singapur sering sering telpon mami
gw : mmm (manggut2)
kemaren kemaren nya lagi di rumah
teppy : ping ntar gimana lo udah pergi gue takut tidur sendiriii ping gimana doooong
gw : halah biasa juga lo ketemu ranjang langsung molor ga pake takut
teppy : (ngambek)
hhehehe yg ini kok terdengar agak lucu ya hahah
iiiih. pengen nya semua ikutan dibawa aja ke singapur jadi kan enak ga usah pisah2 uuh.
tadi pagi gue liat kalender, udah tanggal 22 juni aja grrr. makin deket aja waktu gue berangkat grrrr.
ah udah ah
dadaaah!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
remaining saturdays
hoamm. so sleepy -.-
today i went to goethe, my german course. i finally decided to postpone the next term after had a discussion with my mate. we decided to keep our focus on the national exam.
suddenly i realized that i'll be counting the next couple of weeks to the very last minute. suddenly i had a flashback of this almost two years. the time i've been through with all the good and the bad. friends i've been shared the laughter and the learning with.
suddenly i remembered the first day i had stepped my foot into the institute. i was feared, worried, and i didn't know whether i could do it or not. i felt something strange in my stomach. here and there was full of unknown faces and i felt really alone in the crowd. i walked behind my mom and dad quietly. we stopped as we reached my class. i glanced on the name list on the window and found my name immediately. i had another glance into the room. about fifteen people had sat there, waited for the class to begin. i realized that that would be my new community. i had to make friends. i stepped in and waved goodbye to mom and dad. i reached the nearest chair and put my books on the table without saying a word.
not a long time before the guy next to me stretched out his hand and mention his name. that was the very first beginning of my wonderful time in goethe institute. :)
but now, knowing all of this will be ended soon makes me a bit upset. the phrase 'you will never know how precious something is until you lose it' is definitely right. goethe institute has been a very nice place for learning and making new friends. i'll be missing this place.
i think i'll just enjoy my remaining saturdays to the full.
good night everyone :)
today i went to goethe, my german course. i finally decided to postpone the next term after had a discussion with my mate. we decided to keep our focus on the national exam.
suddenly i realized that i'll be counting the next couple of weeks to the very last minute. suddenly i had a flashback of this almost two years. the time i've been through with all the good and the bad. friends i've been shared the laughter and the learning with.
suddenly i remembered the first day i had stepped my foot into the institute. i was feared, worried, and i didn't know whether i could do it or not. i felt something strange in my stomach. here and there was full of unknown faces and i felt really alone in the crowd. i walked behind my mom and dad quietly. we stopped as we reached my class. i glanced on the name list on the window and found my name immediately. i had another glance into the room. about fifteen people had sat there, waited for the class to begin. i realized that that would be my new community. i had to make friends. i stepped in and waved goodbye to mom and dad. i reached the nearest chair and put my books on the table without saying a word.
not a long time before the guy next to me stretched out his hand and mention his name. that was the very first beginning of my wonderful time in goethe institute. :)
but now, knowing all of this will be ended soon makes me a bit upset. the phrase 'you will never know how precious something is until you lose it' is definitely right. goethe institute has been a very nice place for learning and making new friends. i'll be missing this place.
i think i'll just enjoy my remaining saturdays to the full.
good night everyone :)
