so do not underestimate me

i am small, but i do big.
i am short, but i perform high.
i have lack of height and size, but i definitely have no lack of quality.

some people just like to underestimate me in the first glance. and it has happened like idk-how-many-times already. like in my whole life. destiny? nah. just not a very fascinating fact :P

i know exactly what they're thinking just by looking at the way they respond to my questions or the way they look at me. they think i am just a little girl who is still too young and unstable and unreliable and incapable to handle a job. they may also think that im just acting like im capable when im actually not. and sometimes they would ignore me like im a form of a fly flying free in the air. or talk to me like i have no authority. not cool. either way, i do not care any longer now. whatever it is they think, let it be. like i caarreee.

whoa? really dont care? reallyyyyy? emm not really. hahaha! okay i dont care because at certain point, its always them who would stop and look. and start to notice that there is something they missed. something they overlooked. which is ME. and then they would start trying to read me. or bribe me with chocolates (mr. C? :P) who am i actually? what have i really got? and then, they know better. that yes, i am capable. i am qualified. and above all, i am sincere. and trust me on this, you dont get to find sincere people so easily here.

so sometimes, you just dont have to underestimate me.

oh i hate nagging in blog but this is what i've been holding back for quite a while. and i dont even mean to nag though, i just want a record of what im feeling and how i view this thing.

anyway, im so super sleepy.
im off the screen now.
goodnight, world.

8oC

well yeah so. its been a while since the last time im playing around in the blogging world. so welcome me back!

the previous post showed you how i was thinking about closing down this blog but seemed like i still feel like blabbing in english at times, so. yeah. and blogspot does me good with its image inserting. which does not get me a headache like what wordpress does sometimes. so i think for this time around, i'll just keep it open.

anyway, this is christmas day and luckily its my day off. i dont think i've told you before but i've started my internship just this week and it is truly awesome. like damn fun. i dont know, it just goes beyond my expectation. my colleagues are such great fun people to work with. my supervisor is probably the kindest guy in the whole singapore. he buys us breakfast sometimes, and makes sure we all have already eaten before he eats. we call him daddy. my operation manager, who plays as the big boss in our day-to-day operation, has a kind of swagger in her, and put on a really good makeup. i mean really good. may not be my makeup preference though, but she puts them on really neat and they just flatter her look. and they are all funny. like totally funny. we laugh a lot at work. there was just not a day without jokes and laughter.

what i do everyday is basically what the butlers do, which should be obvious as im doing my intern as a butler. since my workplace is a new baby company of a very big hotel, we only have slightly more than 20 staffs running the company, and butlers simply do almost everything, except housekeeping (THX GOD), concierge, security, sales, and engineering. aside from butlers stuffs, we also cover front office, and sometimes f&b at breakfast. and it was fun. at least for me.

i personally adore my workplace. besides the great people at work, and great physical environment, this company has a great reputation in their services. it started with rank 30something when it was first opened back in june this year, and has flew up to rank 4 recently. i mean, 26 ranks up in 6 months? totally impressive.

and so, i lift up all gratitude and praise for my Father up above for indeed turning a mess into a message. i was rejected in other companies like several times before, remember? and it brought me dark sky for some times. but looking back, if i got the job at one of those companies, i would not end up with this great people. i would end up working behind a front desk with tension every single second of everyday. not saying that front desk is bad, its good, but i think my job is better. you know, personal preference. no hard feeling. i would not end up being introduced to guests and really chatting with them. and playing with their babies. and be known to guests with my own name.

i dont know how things will go from here. what they lead to. but im certain that my Father is totally truly awesome. and He would make everything awesome for me. like what i said on the first day when the HR post my photo and quote my sayings and email them to everybody in the team, i am here to have an awesome experience. and it comes to me.

so stay tune for coming up updates from this miss butler :)
oh, and merry christmas everybody! have a great one!
bubye!

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whoa seems like i havent seen you for ages, my poor little blog!

quick updates :

1. i got the job at C residence by RP hotel, as a butler :) and im starting on 12 next month. EXCITED!
2. im flying home next wednesday, only for 5 days. basically to attend teppy's graduation. well, i cant miss the best graduate's ceremony, right? :D
3. i got my best birthday this year! hahaha.
4. i just got my starbucks card :D and found out i could redeem a complimentary beverage AND a complimentary birthday cake since this month is my birthday month. yippie!
5. i danced in soaked hair and tshirt and pants and shoes today. i was cold all day long. not good. hope i dont fall sick tomorrow.
6. im loving mr.bean's cheese pancake to bits!!
7. i just did my first bible study quiz yesterday. its been long since the last time i did a quiz. haha.
8. im sleepy. time to dig my bed.

goodnight, world.

d-day

so before the news got rotten, let me blab here for a while :)
yesterday, october 18th 2011 (which turned to be my mommy's birthday) was the d-day of my first ever interview! woohoo!

the day started with me waking up at 9, ironing my white shirt and black skirt, then preparing my dancing gear for talent time audition later evening. went online before finally preparing my documents to bring along to the interview. since i was meeting kamil and albert at 1 (yes we were called for interview at the same time), i started making my hair into bun at 11.30. and i gotta put a lot of effort in it. i finally made it into bun anyway (though still messy kamil said) and polish my head with roomie's olive oil hihihi. i then put on my makeup, with little mess here and there after i struck my eyes with that bloody liquid eyeliner. managed to go out without being late.

had carls jr. for lunch. the burger was the size of my face. hell yeah. full, went to toilet to polish my hair (again) and my lipstick. i did actually wear a lipstick! (which was going to betray me later). we finally made our way to conrad hotel, where i would be interviewed for the first time.

so the incident happened. i was straightening my shirt when i looked down and ... ouch! I STAINED MY WHITE SHIRT WITH MY BLOODY LIPSTICK! i cried and i shouted and i hated myself. ran to toilet and scrubbed it with water, which did not work. at all. !#%$!$%#%#$@%.
so i had to walked in to my interview ... with a lips on my shirt. and. that. is. not. good.

there were unexpectedly 3 series of interviews with different people from different positions, instead of only 1. but it was amazing how i did not feel nervous in each and every one (thanks Father!). i just spat out what was on my mind and everything turned out okay, despite my lips on my shirt. the people were nice and we had good conversations, i guess.

hoping for the best :)

kay, need to go to bed now.
goodnight, world :D

p.s.: smash.it (my dance team) got into final! woohoo!