a year

cant believe i've been here for a year now!
or a year plus. i'm so fail in counting :)

before i was actually moved, i was like, WOW. i'm really gonna stay abroad! it felt BIG. cant deny i felt cool. i felt like i was gonna conquer the world. ha! rock it, baby!

but now, i dont feel that much. yes, it is still something. moving here is still something. a year ago, going home meant traveling by car. this year, going home means traveling by plane. that, and the fact that going home everyday is impossible.

sometimes, singapore feels like a place for camping. like i will only stay here temporarily, to play and learn, and then i will leave it, bringing photos and memories that would remain as jokes and stories. like on the day the camp ends i would run to my mom, blabbing about what happened during the camp. and i would take shower, changing into my pajamas and sit there, watching tv with mommy.

at times, though, singapore feels like home. like this is where i am supposed to upgrade myself. to chase after my dreams. to stand on my feet and start walking. to sit in silence when i need to. to go out and burst free when i want to. to find warmth from people i've never thought. like i have yet another bunch of family here.

and at times like this, indonesia feels like a getaway destination. like a place where you go when you get tired. a hiding place when it gets too crowded outside. a silence when it is too loud. a break after a long run.

it's been a wonderful year full of colours. bliss and tears come and go, and they would still come and go. seasons would always be changing. and i would as well be growing. grateful, grateful, grateful. He's always been nearer than my breath, and He'll always be.

it's been a year ..
.. and counting!